It is not long but it really starting to kill me. How could i be so insane? I felt like all this while i'm like a float. Been used after one another. Yet i m willingly to be the tool. Is time to say no and move on. I know it is going to be hard for the first few days because it was my daily routine for the last 1 months plus trying very hard to initiate conversation one after another. But i know this must be stop. Wake up and start to fight for what i want to be. Therefore... relationship (i begged you to stay aside).